It's funny how the music put times in perspective,

Add a sound track to your life and perfect it.. yeee.

Nujabes - Luv Sic pt. 3
http://www.imeem.com/70794533/music/JPabnllF/nujabes_luv_sic_pt_3/

The past few days, I've really tried to put everything in perspective. Less or lot, I still have thoughts of death (not suicide) lingering on my mind and why people die, and if it just ends from there.
I talked to my building mates about what really makes you happy, and I brought up a lot of little things and realize they all shouldn't be taken for granted. But the things I do for other people, it seems like they are taken for granted. Sometimes I feel lost and out of place here, and joining a fraternity has been one of my options that I'm still deciding on. I realize I know a lot of people and people don't see me as lonely. I don't really have anyone too close to fall back on. Maybe a select few, but the only person I can depend on is myself.
With that said, I'm looking just to be more independent. They say don't depend on others for happiness, but my building mate said don't only rely on yourself for happiness either. I'm gonna go with what he says because it is quite true, I can't be happy if others aren't happy around me.
I was outside with some friends taking a walk and enjoying the fresh air last night. Just letting off a little steam. School is stressing kinda. They haven't seen that side of me before, but I let out a lot and I realize I was acting exactly how I was in high school--angry.
Girls girls girls.. hmm. I've noticed I have tooo many female friends. I mean, you can never have enough, right? But I guess maybe it has been interfering with other purposes. I hang out with too many girls, I needa stop. I was at starbucks the other night to use the bathroom. My friend went to use it, and when he came out, he spotted me talking to someone. It's just like that with me, everywhere I go I'll see someone I know.

Anyways, what's new?
Finally start work on wednesday, well I meet up with my supervisor.
Not too much homework this week, but gotta study up for NPB 10.
Accidentally skipped dinosaurs today. Slept for about 11 hours... guess my body was just trying to make up for all the sleep I lost.
I wanna go home this weekend!

Moving forward.

Song: Lupe Fiasco - Happy Industries

This week has been pretty swell.

Last weekend I went to APILR (Asian Pacific Islander Leadership Retreat) and I had a good time. Although tiring, I learned a lot about myself, which what I was looking forward to, and about my culture. I stayed around a bunch of strangers and made like 40 new friends in a weekend. It taught me people really do enjoy me just being me and not trying too much to 'improve' myself.