yea I haven't wrote one in a while..
currently:
I am listening to john legend - coming home
I am still feeling the effects of a hangover
I do not feel content.
So that's what I wanna write about.. I'm at this point in my life where I am not thinking about the future. Constant work and play. I feel like someone is watching over me, not in the heavenly manner, but like an eagle just watching me. am I even doing my job right? I've been skipping classes.. and at the end of the day I'm just partying, or doing something to get away from the day. Funny how we feel most relief at the end of the day.. but the sun is already down.
I count the minutes in the day when I'm not occupied. Time is passing pretty slow right now, and in each of these minutes is thoughts rambling through my mind. Wtf am I doing?
Then again, even I don't know why I feel the way I do. It's so vague. It's like I'm lying to myself.. and if I don't know what the problem is, then where is the solution? It's a damn paradox. Honestly, if you could ask me if I'm depressed, I'd say just slightly. I already have a lot of things going on for me and I have a lot of friends to turn to. But it's hard to find joy when there is nothing to hold it in place.
I'm sitting by the kitchen table. Only 5 minutes have passed since I wrote all that above this. Oh well, it's not like anyone is going to read this. kthaanks peace
