"Out of things" - poetryslam

the poem that got me first place. 10 10 & 10 rating.... first nmhs poetry slam this year 9/22/06. and it was the first poetry slam I been to. my first public recital in front of a large crowd (besides classroom ones).

I rapped it in front of the audience. I ain't gonna lie I was nervous but I don't let that shit take me over. I did it in front of tha crowd anyways. My legs was shakin when I was up there, I didn't care, I felt it, but didn't really notice it, or trip about it. I still kept strong and did my thing, and finish recitin' yanamean.

I just wrote it to get things off my chest.. and anythin flowin in my head.. which is what i always do.. but i chose to recite this one..
I guess it was really heartfelt to people.
thanks and congrats to christine for getting first place also .. and my partnah kim for getting second place with her rap/poem about hiphop being dead. PROPS for that and to everyone else who read their poems.and to those who were there to watch, listen, and applause.

MUSIC SPEAKS FOR ITSELF..

TITLE: "Out of things"

I been feelin kinda too stressed to even write up these paragraphs

Lately I've been too depressed to even have a few laughs

Right now I feel like I'm just all out of things to say

I feel like my life is put to a test when these obstacles come my way

And I don't even think I got anything else to say right now

Try not to end up like this again or follow this route

Cause I feel so damn wasted and to think about how much I try

Just flippin' pages as I write this diary about my life

Funny how I don't know what to say but I'm writin' up some real stuff

Thinkin' I'm insane to be able to handle all the things I deal with

Sometimes my world is twisted and my mind is blank

After all I been through, in the end who can I thank

Except for my family and friends, those who were there with me 'til the end

Only time will tell when my heart mends, and the friendships that ever bend

Can't even count each tear I drop, step I take and second I live

I do whatever it takes to make it to the top and whatever I can give

Puttin' a smile on everybody's face and fixin' that frown

Pickin' these people up when ever they feelin' down

I love when people know how to make me laugh, it makes my day

It just seems to ease my pain and make things okay

What really is life without laughter?

What is it without the dreams that I'm chasin' after?

I hope you understand the message in this song, stuff that I'm just spillin'

Takin chances, and testin', so before I'm gone, you know what I'm feelin'

And what I say is real, so listen to these Words that I'm speakin'

Words can't express how I feel but I know there's somethin' leakin'

I don't even know what I'm sayin' here, it's like I'm speakin my heart out through these words

I just feel like a mess, and still thinkin' how much it hurts

I can't even get through this song without my eyes hurtin'

No matter how hard I try it just ain't workin'

Right now I can feel like my mind is different

Contemplatin' strategies for my future and look forward to my visions

Actions speak louder than words so I gotta try this livin'

Action with vision helps me finish and make my decisions

The story ends without a sequal, like technique said, 'don't fall in love with people'

You know what they say, keep ya head up, stay strong, and move on...